i've gotten back my results. my math was okay,as usual. there were improvements in my english language. and overall i managed to pass. but sadly my class position aint very high.
but that was last week's matter. and we're holding a seniors' farewell BBQ tmr evening. and i'm having second thoughts attending it. something happened today and it managed to wreck my day. maybe i'm just pissed with myself.
i feel totally useless sometimes. i always lose out to everybody, in everything. it feels terrible.
it seems to me that my appearance in this world is neglegible. i did want to help, but it seemed that the others had all kept them to themselves. even the teacher gave all the work to those ______. and i've got nothing to do. i really mean NOTHING. while ______ have aplenty of things to finish.
maybe i'm starting to get jealous or smth. maybe, or rather, MOST PROBABLY. i'm starting to turn into a desperate-for-power monster. please get someone to annihilate me.
and it seems much to me that i'm really not much of use, so i'll shan't bother about such cases anymore. besides, it isnt my job in the first place. and henceforth, i won't feel so terrible.
anyway, i'm gonna start my revision. all over again. and i promise my self to pass every subject with at least a c5. thats the minimum grade i must achieve.
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pro·file - Pronunciation[proh-fahyl]
a history, description, or analysis of myself.
QH.
nice to meet you.
thank you very much.
grass jelly drink.
Thursday, June 01, 2006, 2:51 AM
ha~ its the holidays man!
i've gotten back my results. my math was okay,as usual. there were improvements in my english language. and overall i managed to pass. but sadly my class position aint very high.
but that was last week's matter. and we're holding a seniors' farewell BBQ tmr evening. and i'm having second thoughts attending it. something happened today and it managed to wreck my day. maybe i'm just pissed with myself.
i feel totally useless sometimes. i always lose out to everybody, in everything. it feels terrible.
it seems to me that my appearance in this world is neglegible. i did want to help, but it seemed that the others had all kept them to themselves. even the teacher gave all the work to those ______. and i've got nothing to do. i really mean NOTHING. while ______ have aplenty of things to finish.
maybe i'm starting to get jealous or smth. maybe, or rather, MOST PROBABLY. i'm starting to turn into a desperate-for-power monster. please get someone to annihilate me.
and it seems much to me that i'm really not much of use, so i'll shan't bother about such cases anymore. besides, it isnt my job in the first place. and henceforth, i won't feel so terrible.
anyway, i'm gonna start my revision. all over again. and i promise my self to pass every subject with at least a c5. thats the minimum grade i must achieve.
